selamat raya cina.happy chinese new year.

hey peeps ive been super busy lately. with work and studies. oh i miss all dearest my diamonds so much lately i see more of em when i was still in school,now i rarely see them at all.ive been working at ninewest one utama like a spider monkey in the ninewest store u know hahaha that came out of Twillight.im so lame but who cares wei. day off from work is when i have classes which is on tuesday and thursday which is biology and english.is tiring ok,my social life is cutting short.who say life is easy kan? oh forgot to mention my english lecturer is a super hottie from americam,his name is Mr.Chase.

i miss that someone real badly but he is requesting me to ignore him for his best. i dont find tht good at all as i had to go through pain for 5 months needing him like the phsyco one. if he finds tht is best then ok. ill request it.

btw happy chinese newyear and have good one
iwant angpao please hahaha tak tahu malu

i hate ffk u

ilove delia. tak sengaja okay ish haha

black kembara

naomi is so confuse,so naive and fragile when it comes to you. i look back on everything that happened between me and you. You were someone I thought I couldn't live without [its true i really couldnt].For seven months u are a charmer that always warm me with words and cuddles that i trully adore from u. things did not work out. For 5 months you are still that someone who i couldnt live without.the only thought that would run in my mind. flashback keep on coming as the littlest things keep on reminding me of you especially a black kembara. about things that use to belong to our love story. my love and care towards u never dries out.not a single hate towards u but questions and reason over why this is not goin as i would want it to be.i was week for u,for ur touch,for ur whisper and for ur care once more.
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.


oh damn it why am i always emo over u.i love u i want u i miss you

u came back,i felt heartless and loss. as i was over u, as i thought i would be, my knees are week because im not a sure of what is going on. it was to good to be true. i wanted u so badly god knows how badly it was.
it sounded easy. i realize i had to hold on to my believes and what i went through this whole time. things change.im scared of relationship,promises and the content of love. it wasnt just you. u are as perfect as it can be for me. im the one that always dissapoints you, not you.u hold me like a gravity u can never go wrong with me. u still make me cry like a baby. u still make me laugh like a child. u still make me warm around ur arms.but i cant deal with you i dont want to go through those painful shits again because i love u. and i dont want to be comited to anyone right now.im a trouble that i cant evn deal myself.
You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your reign.

hopefully one day this ridiculous needs of mine would go away. and we would meet again and start it all over again.
hopefully.its crazy i know
when we were together u were the best thing that ever happen to me no doubt about it. when we broke up u were the worst.when this whole thing happen i am overwhelmed and greatful by you. i need to be strong for once as im always fragile for you.hearing and mentioning ur name always brings me a smile on my face.



Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.


I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on
The ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down

I always pretend like nothing is wrong.
Partly because people expect me to always be happy,
and partly because when they say whats wrong, Ihave no clue what I'm going to say.

You want to stay with me in the morning.
You want to hold me when I sleep.
I was meant to tred the waters,
now I've gotten in too deep.

Knowing is better than wondering.
Waking is better than sleeping.
And even the biggest failure,
beats the hell out of never trying.

sign

"Gravity" Sara Bareillis

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your reign.


Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.


I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on
The ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down

fin nal ly

hey pukis and pukets haha. yes i am finally updating my blog after so long. the alasan at first it was because of spm, now i have no reason to not update it so here we go love its gona be a long one. as u know me i am not a blogger nor reader so ill update u about what lights me up so far. i cant believe i am graduated from school already and i wont be looking forward to wear my white baju kurung top with a blue skirt no more. honestly i do feel pretty aimless, i might be hunting for a job soon after new year need some cash to survive u know, mum doesnt want to tanggung her big spender daughter naomi anymore hahaha. i have been spending way to much time'o with my lovely boys, elis and sya during my endless cuti sekolah, they make me feel so loved and appreciated. well i really need to spend time with etain,vinod and bernardine pulak i miss them 3 very much. oh yoko ill ring u soon okay.

list of things to do:

• go to sri amans prom tomorow
• dye my hair red
• get my license done
• spend quality time with mom
• meet up with yoko,steph,bernardine,delia,vinod and so much more. [imissthem okay]
• oh and shireen,teera,teere and sha tooo
  
• go to port dickson for christmas with uncle derek
  
• send syahira kordy off for national service
• newyear with love ones
  
• get a bloody job after newyear
• meet up with thira and listen to her about her trip to new york city
  
• decide over what am i suppose to do my life[further my studies]
• pirce my tounge or my nose
• and it goes on till the day the result comes out. sigh

honestly peeps im scared of changes and seing myself grow up. i scared of people tht i adore so much slide away slowly as we grow, as we all have other things to look forward. im not saying i will not, im sure i will and i will not deny. im just a afraid. i dont want to move to kelana jaya. i want to remain here in my sweet bandar utama.

while lovelife in the other hand . sigh. as i learn to move on and continue the straight rought road, somebody i wants knew came back, i am out of words,so confuse, its like i rather be just like this as where im standing and not go anywhere because of how scared i was to go back to that edge and fall for him again. evrything he does, evryword he say are like venom that would just kill and i would lose it to him once again.i am not in the mood of relationship.


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