black kembara

naomi is so confuse,so naive and fragile when it comes to you. i look back on everything that happened between me and you. You were someone I thought I couldn't live without [its true i really couldnt].For seven months u are a charmer that always warm me with words and cuddles that i trully adore from u. things did not work out. For 5 months you are still that someone who i couldnt live without.the only thought that would run in my mind. flashback keep on coming as the littlest things keep on reminding me of you especially a black kembara. about things that use to belong to our love story. my love and care towards u never dries out.not a single hate towards u but questions and reason over why this is not goin as i would want it to be.i was week for u,for ur touch,for ur whisper and for ur care once more.
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.


oh damn it why am i always emo over u.i love u i want u i miss you

u came back,i felt heartless and loss. as i was over u, as i thought i would be, my knees are week because im not a sure of what is going on. it was to good to be true. i wanted u so badly god knows how badly it was.
it sounded easy. i realize i had to hold on to my believes and what i went through this whole time. things change.im scared of relationship,promises and the content of love. it wasnt just you. u are as perfect as it can be for me. im the one that always dissapoints you, not you.u hold me like a gravity u can never go wrong with me. u still make me cry like a baby. u still make me laugh like a child. u still make me warm around ur arms.but i cant deal with you i dont want to go through those painful shits again because i love u. and i dont want to be comited to anyone right now.im a trouble that i cant evn deal myself.
You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your reign.

hopefully one day this ridiculous needs of mine would go away. and we would meet again and start it all over again.
hopefully.its crazy i know
when we were together u were the best thing that ever happen to me no doubt about it. when we broke up u were the worst.when this whole thing happen i am overwhelmed and greatful by you. i need to be strong for once as im always fragile for you.hearing and mentioning ur name always brings me a smile on my face.



Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.


I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on
The ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down